a flaw

Forming beliefs and passing judgement a human flaw.

Ideas like the idea "opposites" but big ideas have butts or ands

A little Jealous

just a little about curly. 

Three Some

It's a sandwich.

hazy. 

Fancy How you turned into a DB

a Douch bag.

Who would've thought you'd grow up to be who you are now, a scoundrel. 

When is a man undone and when genius is uncovered

Seems like ive been shoved into this path.
Hopefully it leads to uncovering my potential to change the world. Perhaps through writing of thought. But looking at other people lives many have been lead to their doom or into the doldrums of contentment.

What action must we take or can we take to refuse the shovers might and deny our fate in the event we foresee that at the end of the road we are being lead to our undoing.

But then how do we forsee? Perhaps that is finding our genius. Or studying the history of.people.

The Majority vs the Broader View

The collective mind set is the most dangerous thing for the minority. And as minority myself, the idea to defend myself or anyone else I can identify with seems to have taken it's roots in my subconscious.

A society will always have a majority and a minority. And the only defense against oppression or the mind setting of oppression is a broader view of things.

But there are many layers to an individual for example you can belong to the majority of male asian population. But you can be a minority if you are a foreigner. There seems to be a dominant mind set. That binds 1 layer of being a majority. 

Thoughts: End April - May

a hole starts to form and tears start to collect i am not goin to cry even if tis filled, and someday i will build a dam to this all the emotions I feel the will to..

because sometime if you tell the truth no one will believe you.
you sometimes admit to the accusation to help people who can't, understand.

my mind is bound to freedom while other in death

Afternoons lasts for about 3 hours, 

I love to stare at the sky blue, 

it is comforting. 

but somedays 

I can't wait till the stars come out, 

they say that waiting has its merit, 

thay say patience is a virtue, but 

my mind has wandering legs and 

it drags my heart along with it. 

My awakening tested. 

After the confession he made, 

I'm afraid, which is a very good thing. 

Life seems nearer to the way it was, 

I'm moving forward, I'm grateful that I am moving forward. 

I am, part of the know thyself series

I am young man of sense and worth in pursuit of truth freedom faith courage and hope for myself with hopes of influencing the rest of mankind. 

Tula 2: Nicole

Kay sarap mong isipin

Oh Kay sarap tuwing dumadapo
Ang iyong makulay na imahe 

Sa aking kamalayan

Kay tamis ng pag asa na 

iyong binigay sa silong ng hapon

ang OO kahit sa hinaharap pa ay ngayon

nakakapawi ng pagod at poot

Sa gabi bago matulog 

pinalkas mo ang pananalig ko 

sa buhay

O kay sarap mong isipin

Nicole

Poem 129: Snake Like

Snake Like

You're snake like manner and appearance is caught in the middle of nothing.

You are caught in the middle.

I see that you are ssnake-like. 

*this could be a nice poem graph with a giant S. 

Tula 1: Ikot

Dise otso ata ako noon,

Bente otso ako ngayon, mga ilang beses lang ako nakasakay sa ikot na jeep sa UP

papunta ako sa Math building magpapatutor, yun ata pakay ko noon,

maraming beses na rin ako nag ikot na jeep kaya di ko na gaano maalala.

Pero naalala ko duwag pa ako noon, kaya nung nginingitan mo ako, mejo intense.

at binalewala ko lang.

Pero isang alaala iyon di ko malilimutan.

Sayang di tayo nagkakilala. Baka naalala mo pa? text mo ako.

Random: How to make someone fall in love digitally in 10 days

Day 1. Believe that you can and introduce yourself via FB friend request
Day 2. Write a declaration of your love. Post it in your notes section or blog it.
Day 3. Ask her out via e-mail or Skype chat.
Day 4. Instagram your first date.
Day 5. Check in to all the places he/she likes. Try to check in together.
Day 6. Create a pinterest board for everything he/she likes.
Day 7. Tweet him/her on his/her birthday for all the word to see. Ask your friends to tweet too.
Day 8. Send him/her a Youtube link of your favorite music video.
Day 9. Send him/her gifts via e-bay.
Day 10. Make an app of love in the Android or Apple store. Hope he or she downloads it.

Poem 127: B's Static Boob

B's Static Boob

I was inspired

to conspire

with you a formal 

desire

To win a pitch

to fulfill an 

itch

and as my elbow

touched your right

or left boob,

static struck
it was funny,

twas awesome. 

Song 2: Fringe

Fringe


Sa dulo ng ating dila
may mga tala

Sa iyong kamay
may tiwala, may naisip
na maganda,

Sumakay tayo sa dalang alon
ng kanilang tuwa

Tayo lang
ang nalalakad sa
kalyeng
bihira ang may alam

Sa gilid, sa tabi
tayo ay magsasalita

bubukasan ang daan
patungo sa kapayapaan.

Sa gilid sa tabi,
tayo ay magsasalita

maririning, titinding
mabubuhay ng tama.

Sa gilid sa tabi,
ng kalye,
may mga kasama,
magbubukas ng daan
patungo sa kapayapaan.

Song 1: Heart's Gone

Heart's gone


I'm walking to
new places while
waiting for you
to come around

who knows when
the sheets will
fold between
us again

for another time
will be waiting
for your skin
on mine

But my heart's gone
My Heart's so beautiful
but She's gone.
to a fool.

She was never handed over.
Promises were done
Question answered
and hope was made but
I never recovered.

But my heart's gone

My Heart's so beautiful
but She's gone.
to a fool.

Letter # 5

Dear B.D.,

How can you know a greater love when you've never suffered a broken heart? 

Letter 1: To Pat "My 2013"

Dear Patrick,

You recently asked my how I am, well for your candid information, I wouldn't want to be in any place right now except maybe healthier and richer. :) I am in fact quite content about life at this very moment. But there are bad moments too, and it could be better and I am moving towards that better place, or the way it was before....

You know, all I need is an awesome good year, just one MOFO amazing year!. To recover from 2012 and the financial blow it dealt and to rid me of all the health issues I've been facing, good thing that none of which are life threatening.

Anyway actually all my "eggs are in this one basket of a year" - 2013. After turning down and being turned down on several applications last year and early this year, a roller coaster ride of emotions. I am finally at the cusp of leaping forward 10 steps in my career and my financial status along with it.

Hopefully, and I pray, that it materializes because God knows I need this.

On other matters, suddenly there now dreams of going to Europe when there were none, there are also these dreams of still getting back with CN. I get this every two weeks or once a week and I don't mind. Even if I think there's an opportunity for romance. Someone is unknowingly tugging at my heart or at least the place where my heart used to be.
 
Anyway "summer" is almost around and I've yet to lose the weight, and submit the poetry collection to Palanca, that goal setting exercise we had at the agency was a sudden reminder.

Maybe you should submit your proses or something.

See you soon after a year or something,

J

Poem 126: Tapos

May nag uusap lang sa tabi,
tungkol sa volley ball.

Yung hilig mo panoorin.

Tapos naalala kita.

Poem 127: A guy like Neal

Where to find a guy like Neal?

DOTA 2

I've never played DOTA 1.