The stars are blind

Behold the night sky
nestling stars
and look upon this
earth of many
extraordinary eyes,

Many search for love,
but they don't find it.
Lately it only seems to
rain heart break
and the onlookers
are flooded with starlight
and tears.

The stars are blind
to the beauty of the eyes
that look upon them.

So are the people who think
that they are in love.

Pastel Blue

The sky is a subject that's always been
so easy to write about. Within the endless comfort
of pastel blue,
I found that there was something
so beautiful hidden within the clouds
A warm hopeful feeling. 

Not like love, love is difficult,
specially when it's young, inexperienced,
and the hearts that hold it are ever changing,

12 Poems

I didn't have 12 poems for you,
I couldn't write them for you then,
I didn't know anything about love,
I thought you didn't know either.

I tried several times, and never did finish.

I don't have 12 poems for you,
nor for my dreams,
I tried to write them
a few years go, and that was
all in vain,

June 2020 - About The Past

It has been 17 years now since the incident that left me depressed & completely and utterly lost. Since then, not a day has gone by that I didn't look back to who I was, or rather who I think that I would've become if that incident didn't happen. There's always some feeling of blame - If that didn't happen and I would be this - but that's not the case, if that didn't happen to me, things could have gone worse, perhaps I would not be here today.

These past few days feels like I've been given some clarity by the universe. I feel that I have been= finally set free from chains of the past. I can finally say that I regret nothing. I know 17 years and I've only accepted my fate now.

Now I choose to be in the present. I will not forget the past, I am the past and my past was beautiful. Now I choose to live, I choose to take hold of my life and drive it to the direction that I want it to be. For what it's worth, this pandemic has given me clarity in life. And I hope that it has given other people that as well.

My immediate goals in life are very clear. Step 1 is financial freedom - it doesn't matter how long it takes 3 years - 5 years. From there I know life will open up.