No one knows how difficult it is for gay guys to find romance. The values are skewed

For Mars and Elena

There are two flowers in the heart of the desert. Their ivories buds crown the moon. And they shine in my life like water and my joy. It's time for them to bloom.

Katunog ng tugtog

For Michael again

You are an illusory candy.

A quay to the lost.

For Nicole

In love with you, I fell into the depths of my own madness.

Perched at the branches watching a mind so high, that the leaves of my dreams now entangle with the sky.

l took refuge into the ground sailed like the autumn leaves falling like the stars.

Deep into the ground where all the leaves are wordless and you will utterly be forgotten.

Dear Peach

Who knows the gains of valor, and if a leaf is blown to space by society's arm what will be its purpose? And if a child finds its way between us how shall we name it. Who can tell that it will dry my heart that now turns to a river.

Who else knows the troubles that afflicts us... and the sea of emotions we feel each waving wave is a feeling in intself.

So what will you do between now and 32 if you find your man then and if I find mine what are we to do?

Quote # 3

I know if it's you and me. It's just going to be you and me. All the way baby.

About the sea and whatever was in it.

My feet are resting high on the edge of a katig,
lucky to never ever be sea sick. 

A few seconds ago the horizon was limiting my vision,
and now I'm submerged stretching my breath unto rubber tubes and metal tanks.

And my eyes is dazzled
with colors unavailable to the ordinary tropical sky. 

Yellow coral green, neon echinoderm purple, and clown milky white and orange and an abyss darker than the night. 

but the sea is infinitely bigger, beyond the feet of lovers,
saltwater waves wash away, surfboards, sunblock, my flip flops and 

very precisely whatever we want it to wash away. 

The sand beneath the earth is wet and dry,
the mangrove roots are wet and dry, these hearts between tides
are actually never flat, they are always singing spot on note,

and we are all deeply drowned by it's majesty,
an expanse reflecting the universe into our hearts,

and sometimes simply feeding our bellies

with sushi, uni and seaweed. 

For Michael

You never really caught my
eye baby, yet I listened with
my heart,

Because everytime,
you entered my field
of vision babe,
madly I fell into your depth,

So It must be your voice babe
or something else I can't see,

It must be your personality
babe warm like the sea,

It must be something unseen
babe that captivated me.

And today I miss you babe,
And my memory tries,

to remember the time babe,
when you were so close beside me

and specially when your legs
criss crossed into mine/d. 

Quote # 2

Every time you feel a negative emotion, take it as an opportunity to be virtuous. I'm afraid and I now need to be brave. 

28

I think at this point everything seems precious to me. Family my job

You are a scar in my vision

Now there are empty streets
But tomorrow there will be men
And possibly children

I've seen many bikers,
Walkers, dancers,

Tasted hurting but
No wound is greater
Than you

You are a scar in my vision
In my day dreams
And in my hopes

In broken sun rays
On my way home

Don't be shy

If you see me eye to eye
Don't look up or down
Don't pretend

Pagibig

Ay isang karamdaman
Tahimik
Panatag

Sa mata ng bagyo
Matatagpuan
Ang pagibig ko
Sayo

Ito ang centro
Ng lakas at ng kaguluhan

Hayaan mo ako

Paki usap mahal
Lumapit ka ng sandali

Bawasan mo muna
Ang pagmamahal mo
sa iyong mga magulang

At ang mga takot
sa lipon ng mga
tao ay itapon mo muna
At saka ay pulutin
Kung mamaya ay
gugustuhin

Punasan mo muna
Ang pag aalala
sa iyong mala-
Dyamanteng mata

Hanapin mo muna
at isuot ang totoo
Mong mga ngiti

Buksan mo ang
Nakakandado nating
Pagkakaibigan at
tabihan mo ako
Ng sandali.

hayaan mo ang maunos kong
Ulo ay dumantay
Sa lupain ng  iyong katawan
At hayaan mong marinig
Ng iyong mga balikat
Ang paglapat
Ng aking tenga
At ang pagalulong ng
aking hiniga.

Tabihan mo lamang ako
Ng sandali.

Paki usap pahiram muli
ako ng ang oras,
Sumalok ng mga minuto
Karagatan ng iyong buhay.

Punuin mo
Muna ang naiwang
puwang
Hawakan at gamutin mo muna
ang
Aking naulilang palad.

Pakiusap mahal sa aking
Pagdating ay
Tabihan mo
Ako ng sandali.

Ilusyon

How can we get
Rid of this big blanket of illusion
That makes us human
That makes us desire
And discriminate

How can we come to terms
And meet with
The truth

Dreams do not come late

And no my english is not perfect
I've not used it that much yet
For me to be able to write
Poetry in English...my use of it must be nothing less than perfect.

Borrowed

Everyone deserves a poem

Everyone does.

Borrowed Lyrics

I've heard him sing it

Heard her say it,

hear him humm it.

We've all borrowed words sometime

used it to ease the pain

used it to delight the soul.

Thank you for the borrowed lyrics.

Love Letter 1

This is a love letter.

But I don't think I can ever

come to a point where I could

write exactly how I feel for

you. I have been trying for a

couple of weeks now, to put to

words, my feelings for you. And

so here's another attempt.

Because who knows what the

future holds for us, but I'd

like to let you know just how

much you mean to me.

All I can imagine for the past 2

years is what a wonderful day I

would have if I can ever hold

your hand again, like how we

used to. And what a waste of

precious time it is not being

able to do so. And I do

understand that you have to do

your thing, and I have to do

mine. So I chose to wait for you

even if I think time is against

us.

To wait for you to fall in love

for me again like how you did,

for the third time perhaps? - It

is something I have been looking

forward to, after sometime when

I thought we have had enough

space from each other, it's

almost been 2 years. But I am

still looking forward to that

day. Thinking about you during

the gaps in my work, the gaps in

the day, you fill them with

love.

And my feelings grow each day,

love but now there is also fear

of you replying, not replying

if this is really what they call

love, then I'm lucky. My life

has purpose as long as I am in

love.

My feelings for you now seem to

me like a permanent thing. Like

a belief or an ideal as vast or

as the matter in the universe.

Although you said it was best

for us to be friends and you'd

love that and it did hurt like a

pinch in the chest and a punch

in the stomach,but since you

also said you deeply cared and

prayed for me everyday, that

made me so happy I couldn't stop

smiling. Punched but smiling at

the same time. That's how to

live right? And I was inspired

to conquer the world and see it

with you, I sometimes imagine to

explore the milky way with you.

In this life I have lost many

things and there are some things

I ought to get back, abstract

things like my "will" and my

focus, like some of my health,

which has considerably

diminished. But I know i will be

able to gain them all back. But

even now, I do not mind losing

more if it will lead me to you.

I was soo happy when you came to

the house and spent a few hours.

But I'm not sure if I ask the 2

questions in proper order, I

have my doubts.

I want to be with you always and

I hope for the day that you find

yourself in a place where you

have the time to be with me and

be with your family whom I know

you love and enjoy yourself too

all at the same time. But if

hindi naman with me okay lang,

basta in a very happy place. :)

I guess I will come to you again

after 2 years and I promise not

have any relationship.

I wish you all the success in

the world. I think you are very

intelligent, loving, kind, very

very smart and talented and

least important very very

handsome. if you ever feel

inadequate at work,please don't

it just might not be the right

time.  


...

I was supposed to send this

sometime ago... but what's been

said has already been said. I am

thankful for that and will leave

you be I did all my best. And as

spoken we could be friends. I

don't think I can hang on to us

any longer, it's time to fall in

love again.