Monday, May 18, 2015

Journal Entry 1

Firstly, on superficial things tied into or tangled with existential musings and mild depression.

1. I really want to lose the fat. I know exactly what to do but I am somehow handicapped. Unable to muster the force of will to decide to not eat at night. There has to be a better strategy a better way to cope with stress and a better way to deal with this. I have some food supplements that I should just throw out or sell. They are confusing me from finding the super food that I am meant to eat.

2. I really want to have savings. But fate or asos.com has something else in mind.


Secondly on strengthening the mind.

1. Can I do this just by strengthening the body? By listening to meditation podcasts? by reading a book?

2. Prayers and going to church has recently HELPED a lot. I felt my spirits lifted? Is this what they call the holy spirit?

Third is time.

Lastly, I would never be able to articulate this grain of thought that is growing in my mind. It's not that reality is shattered. The concepts of reality have revealed themselves and the fundamental question that is why can never be answered.




Saturday, August 09, 2014

Pusakal

Tayo ay naka higa
parang pusang matamlay
na naghihintay
sa pagsikat ng araw.

Huwag kang pipikit
sapagkat malapit na
ang tamang oras

na maiugnay mo
ang mga kaganapan
sa paligid, sa
iyong sarili,

ang mga naririnig mo
sa mga kwento at balita,
nakikita mo sa mga
bugtong hininga

tumayo ka at
Harapin mo
ang iyong sarili



Naka higa tayo na parang mga pusang kalye.

hinihintay bumagal ang oras o magbago ito, hinihintay magkaroon ng lakas.






at bumalik sa tamang

pag-iisip.

Saturday, June 21, 2014

#29 Suddenly

I was not prepared with the suddenness of our relationship, 

It's just like how rainbows form across the sky, instantly gigantic and magnificent. 

And you are sprawling brilliantly across my life. . 


Sunday, March 02, 2014

No one knows how difficult it is for gay guys to find romance. The values are skewed

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

For Mars and Elena

There are two flowers in the heart of the desert. Their ivories buds crown the moon. And they shine in my life like water and my joy. It's time for them to bloom.

Katunog ng tugtog

For Michael again

You are an illusory candy.

A quay to the lost.

For Nicole

In love with you, I fell into the depths of my own madness.

Perched at the branches watching a mind so high, that the leaves of my dreams now entangle with the sky.

l took refuge into the ground sailed like the autumn leaves falling like the stars.

Deep into the ground where all the leaves are wordless and you will utterly be forgotten.

Monday, February 17, 2014

Dear Peach

Who knows the gains of valor, and if a leaf is blown to space by society's arm what will be its purpose? And if a child finds its way between us how shall we name it. Who can tell that it will dry my heart that now turns to a river.

Who else knows the troubles that afflicts us... and the sea of emotions we feel each waving wave is a feeling in intself.

So what will you do between now and 32 if you find your man then and if I find mine what are we to do?

Saturday, February 08, 2014

Quote # 3

I know if it's you and me. It's just going to be you and me. All the way baby.