Saturday, May 29, 2010

One hot Saturday in May 2010

I will not be defined by cliches. i.e. the more you hate the more you love. I think I felt hate today. Partly hated myself too actually.

Why do I feel that there are very few people who are capable of thinking beyond what would benefit themselves.

On that note this song/poem is for you.

Oh, I got something to tell you.

Oh, I got something to say.

You are different, indifferehent.

You are terribehel, dispicabehl

You are notorious, so dangerous.

High expectations rushing to my brain.

You are a let down, a low down.

You are different, indifferehent.

You are terribehel, dispicabehl

You are notorious, so dangerous.

so self absorbed, so negative, so selfish.

--- well its unfinished.

The day was better bumped into an old friend talked about life. depression.facing your fears.

I guess what we are avoiding really is our own thoughts of what others may believe about ourselves. I think it gets harder as we grow older.

sigh. :)

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

And another one bites the dust...

Another colleague will leave the office.

Most of the time goodbyes are never as sweet as hellos.


Sunday, May 09, 2010

How Apt.

My Chinese Horoscope.

You will find deep and abiding changes are happening in the workplace. Don't fear or resist them as they are absolutely vital to sweeping you to a much more prosperous and happy position in the long term. Don't let yourself be bullied or guilted into taking on work you are not paid for.

Brighter side

For the record: My sinuses, general well being is wayyyyyyyyyyy beyond better than before the rhinoplasty and adenoidectomy. :)

Thanks dr. Lopa! You are a miracle worker!

The Office Space

It was just too bad that we didn't hit our deadline again.

We are doing this site for a real estate company and we've not been hitting the deadlines.


1. There's just too much work.
2. Plus we didn't manage our work loads my fault.
3. It's not like we work slow but maybe we lack the system and the experience to execute stuff quickly.
4. Deadlines are somewhat strict and unreasonable.

Maybe the stress is just getting to me. I don't know.

Also an office mate is asked to resign is that even legal?

Dunno maybe I'm just stressed out.

Monday, May 03, 2010

No sleep for the restless, No rest for the weary.

- Nighttime Ogling

Pennies for my passion.

Gold for motivation.

I have to do this.

Success isn't that important to me.

But for others winning is everything.

I must make the design of this nothing short of brilliant.


Dear Vito,

Well, to start with,i think i've lost my cool, suddenly i'm reacting to things in a negative way. I shouted at my mom. I reacted to an email negatively. Somehow I can see this trait from my family and some of my friends. I need to break the cycle.

I hope and pray that you'll grow up to be a cool kid.

Sunday, May 02, 2010

Under Construction

Dear Santa,

The house is under renovation, I'm under recovery from a surgery. Too much things happening all at the same time, and I'm channeling the chaos it is reflected in my life. Work, relationships and goals. I wish that I come out of this metamorphosis invincible like gold. Invincible from all the emotional roller coaster.

Dear Santa, Will you please give me a DSLR camera to shift my focus? the Canon 550D looks great.


I need a hard hat too, life throws hard things at me nowadays.

Saturday, May 01, 2010


We lost a bid for an account. The overlying idea was mine, or mostly mine, although the circumstances that brought about me having to think of a not so fresh idea wasn't my fault. My company's habit to do most things at the last minute is taking its toll. Still, if I had a brilliant idea, it would have saved the day. But I didn't, so naturally, the pharma company awarded the digital component of their offline campaign to some other digital agency. It doesn't feel good to lose... somehow there is an obsession to be on the other side of things.

Ideas are too powerful, they cost millions of pesos some times. Bummer I worked the whole day today even if its a sat, and I have to work the whole day tomorrow. sheesh when will it end?